Lately, I have been struggling with determining what I am more -- a photographer or a writer? I began this blogging journey as more of a writer. I loved short stories and novels, and began composing a few of my own. I created charaters, mused plots, and entered contests. Idea after idea would creep into my head, and I would sit for hours typing away.
Then last year, I fell in love with photography. It became more then just a hobby, and once I got Perry, it grew into a love. Although I still don't know as much as I'd like, I'm trying to grow into some sort of photographer. I'm just not quite sure what kind yet.
To a certain extent, photography has slowly eclipsed my love for writing. Many of those half-written stories I created long ago have remained untouched for months, and were sadly forgotten. Occaionally, I will scroll through the stories and read a few chapters of one. It's amazing how much better I was at writing two years ago then I am now. I've gotten so rusty.
Then there come the waves of doubt, when I begin to wonder if photography or writing are even things I ought to be pursuing. Neither come very naturally to me, as much as I'd like to think they do. I'm not so talented as many, and hardly a proficient at either.
But I think I'm beginning to realize what the problem is in this all. I can't simply state that, "I am a photographer" or "I am a writer." I can't define myself by those definitions, as much as I would like to. I am not simply a photogrpher. I am not simply a writer.
But I am a daughter of the King, and that is all that matters.
I'm tired of letting those things define me, because they don't. I am simply a girl, trying to find a purpose in this life. And so far, the only way I have been able to define myself with utter confidence is through Jesus Christ. A sinful person, needing a Savior. A selfish heart, colliding with agape love.
Yes, the Lord has given me a love for writing and a love for photography and a love for crafts. But those things don't define me. I can only pray they will help me to glorify Him.
p.s. my thoughts about this topic are constantly churning. what's your point of view?